July 23, 2021

Max was gone when Haven got up yesterday. When i checked his diaper, it was fully loaded with urine to the point that it couldn't hold anymore. I could feel the humid residue on his abdomen, lower back, and both sides of his legs

i havent been sleeping in the room

max didnt see Haven until around 830pm or 9 yesterday. I don't what he was doing all day. I was so sick i couldnt walk.

Threats of car tow and i know max wont help me get it back. I have to make this happen alone in my condition somehow.

was going to everett yesterday morning for exciting lockers (1 with 2 bikes) but then car issues med issues - account suspended already? So thats very disappointing for me.

missed instacart delivery bc sleeping w haven and no phone with me

had stuff for haven to make life more tolerable for him

not being able to play with him and clean up for him has been the worst

passed out in the bed last night tho

been incredibly unwell

woke up and haven started kissing me and being so sweet to me

Tess!!!!

i still don't have clothes that fit or flip flops and that is very frustrating to me

recs req to FBX again this morning