Not Home @ 3am

Woke up at 3am to get haven a bottle

Max wasnt here

there was barely enough milk left for 1/4 bottle, thankfully that was perfect amount to put Haven back to sleep

for some reason max came to room before haven woke up and i asked if he got milk for Haven while he was gone and he didnt

i got up at 8am to go to Leschi Mart and get Haven whole milk. It costs around $6 for a quart. I also got him 2 large apples, an orange & a stem/leaf mandarin orange

i also got triscuits

was sick from energy drink withdrawal yesterday and through night

have had sweats all day

max very mean yesterday

got me water i couldn't talk just groan

hissed: you're welcome at me, and left

took my things piled in hallway, put in back of truck all night someone fucked with them and left a faded black and red Fox Racing hoodie on the sidewalk next to the truck

took haven to daycare instead of letting stay with me

i was on couch hanging with haven until max came around made me stressed and sick to my stomach so i closed eyes and ignored

he got haven to leave by pretending they were going to play outside

i just realized why haven doesnt get excited to go outside anymore when suggested

gave Haven apples, crackers, cheese for lunch

was upset after walk with grandma and yelling and stomping and trying to get away from me when he got back and saw me

when i asked if he wanted what i got for him he said no but went to bedroom with me and snack plate after i had everything prepared

we had snacks and read his animal/sound button eric carle book and he put himself to sleep next to me

hes been using taggies to lull himself to sleep lately instead of his bunny animal hankie thing

used the zipper from a pillow case as one this afternoon

i took out bathroom bedroom kitchen hallway trash

today did dishes twice

vacuumed today

living room cleaned up Thursday

made spaghetti meatballs bacon sausage garlic bread casserole

max yelled at me for "using all the pasta" (there's an unopened box left)

tonight made baked beans pork loin thin cut little smokies carrot brown rice for dinner

cut up orange for Haven prior

he wanted bottle when woke up

accidentally broke plate of leftover snacks i left in there i didnt know he was awake heard him say Uh Oh loudly i went in and he almost tears but I comforted told him it was ok, no one angry because of