::@& To Kk $$ Piece of Won Mess Age(s)

I remember not being able to comfort you once; you were maybe like between two and four years old and I could not console you. Maybe you had a nightmare or something, or maybe it was your back brace bothering you. But I remember holding you- maybe were sick. Anyways. I was holding you close and getting you as comfortable as I could get you and you were crying and I remember feeling the warmth in my heart for you and how big my love for you made my heart and my chest area feel. I guess that's your heart chakra area and it just felt so big and warm and smiling and endless for you and I remember focusing on that goodness that I had for you and sending it to you from my body to yours and transmitting it kind of communicating it through our physical contact. And it calmed you down. I didn't say anything to you, that's all that I'd done after countless other actual things I had tried that night, that was what worked; easily opening my heart and giving you what I felt in it for you.

I felt love for Haven, but when I tried to call upon that feeling that I knew was there somewhere, it felt like my heart was closed. It felt hard and not warm, like a house that hasnt been used for years, and it was confusing and I kept trying to do that for him but I couldn't do it. And ever since then I started putting real work into reawakening that part of me my heart chakra because I knew why it was closed and I knew that it needed to exist again, to function again, for me to be healthy and for my kids to get the love that they need from me.