Opines Re I Don’t Even Exist But I Don’t Get Pisst I Have a Green Hat w An Orange Bill & Lauryn Hill

Max should start to deep clean / remodel apartment in effort to stay

Should have fixed up backyard last summer

Needs to stop being such a loser & liar

He’s in his mid 40’s and scamming welfare. He’s on welfare and quite happy with it. That’s repulsive.

He should care about Haven.

He should care about having an awesome spot to live right next to his parents for literally $15 a month rent.

He doesn’t even keep the front from being trashy. He lives like such garbage and gets mad at me for pointing it out. But it’s true.

The other night I came out of bathroom with Haven after bath and max was sitting 1.5 feet away from a pile of poop. He’d been sitting there for at least 45 minutes with full knowledge there was a pile of poop right next to AND IN FRONT of him, within eyesight. All max wants to do is sit on his phone, sit in the bathroom on his phone pretending to be taking a shit, or make crack, apparently, because that’s all he does here. He doesn’t interact with Haven any more than Haven or I force him to. When left to his own devices, the first thing he does in the morning with Haven is turn on the tv. Right away. Haven finally getting out of that habit now that max is never up with haven anymore.

Haven used to sleep in as late as max and stay in bed with him as long as possible, I’m assuming to get as much time in with his dad as he could. Haven doesn’t do that anymore. When he wakes up, If I’m not next to him, he calls loudly for me. Max is losing Haven, which I think has been long due him and is probably best for Haven to separate himself emotionally from a dad who doesn’t wAnt to be his dad - who doesn’t want anything to do with him aside from the welfare scamming capabilities and the other charity things max sees as perks instead of pitiful.

However. I want max to wake up still. To be a human being and care about haven. Haven still wants and needs a good male role model father figure. Max is a terrible awful figure for anything except failure and f*** offery. But it doesn’t have to be that way. He doesn’t have to sit on his phone next to poop and sneak out of the apartment every other night after Haven is asleep. When “putting haven to bed “ max can do more than sit, unmoving and emotionless, on his phone watching porn. He could say good night to haven maybe. Talk to him about his day, give him positive affirmations, happy dreams. Work toward something, to building Haven a happy and fulfilling life. Helping him find the skills and thinking patterns he needs to be able to find emotional clarity and balance as he evolves. I love Haven so much that I want Max to realize better for himself so that he can give good

To our son.

I want to see Max make Haven feel loved by his dad.

I want to see him Cause Haven to believe and feel that his dad actually really loves him.