Left Again - Saturday Night

I was able to "help" Haven go to sleep tonight and excused myself to look for his littlest bestest baby bear

Around 11:30- 11:45pm, I found Haven naked and Max-less on the bed, completely uncovered, with the air conditioning blasting cold air in there, which it had been doing for at least the 2 hours prior to my re-entry. Haven looked pale, which was worrisome due to his perfect golden bronze summer skin tone. His mouth was open and he looked out cold. I put down whatever I was holding and rushed over to him, oh my baby I said over and over. I put his black tag around him and got into bed with him, held him tight from behind him. I laid there a while with him, until the number of things I need to do that will benefit Haven motivated me to leave my comfortable, cherished, and often cruelly-withheld place next to my small-big son.