January 5 2022 Gone from 630pm last night to 530am

Didnt tell me he was leaving- messaged me 15 minutes after he left - said he was going to casino

Haven asleep when he left

He stirred and muttered a few things when max drove away the sound very faint i noted hAvens knowing he breaks my heart

Haven woke a little fussy finally i decided to lay down & sleep the night away with him when he physically got up

Too late to bring haven to play place in Bellevue like i told him I would he woke up closer to 8pm than 7pm

Max let him nap at terrible time closer to 5pm he knew better and did so intentionally after a week of me getting up at 330-4am with haven bc max let haven take a nap at 630pm instead of keeping him up a few more hours. I loudly voiced my objections to his allowing that kind of schedule; max will keep doing these things regardless of the effect on haven and i until it has an undesirable effect on him. For now its easier for max, so he won't stop.

I knew it would be late if when haven woke up, so i thought up an alternative plan for him. I wanted to get the balloon machine from my house & go to fred meyers for balloons.

Son ive got to go outside

Son ive got to go to the bathroom then i can go outside and play

Haven waiting for bike ride-I couldnt bc not dressed & no clean clothes wearing oversize faded black men's joggers look super weird

Max Came out w gloves & garbAge bag flapping it around loudly yelling at me bc he threw all the paint I bought for haven for Christmas away and then lied about it at least 2 separate times to my face

Left w/Haven left him at his moms house & came right back to yell at me again

I have bad headache just sitting in living room crouched in corner haven't said a word

Max Went in bathroom lots of movement in there about An hour shower yesterday heavy fast (loud) setting south pArk or something belligerent ear piercing loud even from around the corner behind a counter

He's like 101% definitely doing secret substance every day in there but due to lack of experience i am clueless as to what

1/5/22 Wednesday