on this day

Haven is absolutely marvelous. We went to the historic carousel at Pier 57 Miner's Landing last night. He was in awe at the bus, but also began to pass out in my lap, chest to chest, on the bumpy 2-section #27 going slowly up the narrow, windy road from Lake Washington to the very top and where the road turns into Yesler Way until it hits the water and is no longer possible for it to can be a road anymore after from then on. He woke up at every stop, too, asking what we were doing, and so I happily began narrating for him what and why the bus was stopping or going, or doing anything, and somewhat describing the people around me, and of course what I was doing, when it was time for me to do something.

He'd had more sugar than he'd ever had in his life earlier in the day. I've been really out of it and not-all-there since Max raped me and stole all my belongings, and I feel terrible for it; guilty, penitent and regretful even while my behavior is in process. So while placing an order for Dakin's , I noticed several items on Amazon that are SNAP EBT purchase eligible. That was quite the exciting news for me, and I began to investigate all kinds of anything that is available for purchase through Amazon using EBT as a method of payment. I ended up ordering Haven (and I, I suppose) a kinda-too-adult popcorn/chocolates/caramels/lentil chips/toasted mini baguette chips in gift boxes food basket boxes, I got him a basket of fruit supposed to be here Tuesday, and I have some candy sorta things that LOOK like mini fruits but are actually not. He hasn't seen those yet, because he also received a gift box of Ring Pops and the like, a bag of dentist-recommended teeth cleaning lollipops, a bag of manuka honey lollipops from Wedderspoon, and GOLD TINY STAR SHAPED EDIBLE GLITTER. I received a 2-pack of red palm oil (which might be very very awesome) and a large(er) container of hemp oil for (hopefully) hemp oil pulls.

My mouth is really messed up, and since yesterday, I've been very dizzy upon standing, and this evening I felt odd and dizzy just lying on my back on the bed. Is it possible the dizziness is from the carousel?

I bought things for Haven to eat this afternoon since he was very low on food supplies. I bought him a 4-pack of those flaxseed muffins at Leschi Mart, chocolate chip kind of muffins, and also

6-pack cage-free eggs

Green grapes

Fruit cup of sliced strawberries

Raspberries

Blackberries

Ritz toasted crisps cheddar flavor (he's never had these before, but at first he did like the sour cream and chives version - but after trying and eating a few the first day we had them in the apartment, he didn't and hasn't (that I know of) eaten them again

Fresh caught Sole fish

Bolo roll

Mini baguette