Max’s After I Leave

Woke up with Haven. He was a happy cooing wake up, but also macks was in living room on couch. When Haven sees Max, it seems to remind him of all the abandoned inconsolable times. With me around, Max started giving him attention just to get me off his (Max's) back. I think Haven started this routine because of feAr. Hes afraid of being left again and of things returning to the way they were in the not so distant now-past, when Max leaves Haven without a word and totally ignores him unless acknowledging him is absolutely required. Still when i leave for 24-36 hours-ish, when I return the house hasnt been cleaned at all from the time i left, and sometimes the additional and also untouched mess is of an amount that brings rise the question of what the duck has been going on there. The energy inside is usually chaotic, desperate-despair, needy, and then what is the word for doing something morally wrong but acting with entitled indifference, with only a trace of guilt that raises up when the fear of said actions becoming known arises